we won

I remember
irresolute+imitation+servile cast of images  
promising hard fought victories - HA! - alteration of  
consciousness consumes bogus convictions + only now I  
drink from the living cup.....
 

Pausing on my solvent stairway I am aware of the hush  
surrounding the stars that I so bravely inhabited+I remain  
ignorant of idols impersonating immaculate illusions that  
surround me still+never admitting that I alone am endowed  
with the power to emancipate  
 

HIM
 

like this
 

how tell me how i cannot like this  
understand.figure.wait shhhhhh stop
dream the shaken world has exploded
exploded no explanation I hear I hear
nothing syd nothing like you saying
you have wanted to do this for years  
years of solitude years of ends and
years of beginnings wait he/I said
I said she said nothing will be at last  
 

a perfect space in time for all to see
two beams collided in the collider collided
is a fucking metaphor for life begun
begun as two beams traveling a hundred  
million miles an hour in opposite directions  
can finally finally be in the right space  
at the right time and collide in an instant
of recognition that the other the other  
has the soul intertwined with the other  
the other after 25 years of being there
 

cords of seaweed wind around my legs and torso
strapping me to this delicious fountain of wine
I breathe in.I breathe out.swallowing sweet  
triumphant excesses; won't let you bury it
screaming scandals drowning+squeezing
sucking+reciting tales of magic+mystery